Anne Frank Once Said...

"Dead people receive more flowers than the living because regret is stronger than gratitude"

My Yin Yoga instructor mentioned this during our class the other day. She said it makes her cry almost every time she reads or says it. I could hear the tremble in her voice as she spoke the words. The pain could be felt as she tried to hold it in.

As someone who recently had to hold the last breath of a beloved in my arms, I couldn't help but feel the same. I should have done this. I should have done that. I could have been better. I should have been better.

As these phrases run through my mind, I feel the same pain in my throat trying to hold me back from feeling the sadness, grief, and regret.

I wish I had been better.

Now my dreams are filled with loss. My fear of losing anyone and anything else so dear to me is so strong I am living it even when I close my eyes and fighting to hold on.

We can't change the past, but we can change the present and the future.

For all those in my life, I will do everything in my power to make sure you know just how much you are loved.